Academia was never my identity, but I
strove to master it. I love books, heavy thoughts, deep and honest
discussion, analytical and emotionally dissociated study, all of it.
From my perspective, particularly before I came to ETBU, nothing was
more important than knowledge: I need to be accurate, quick,
well-versed. I have to have sound doctrine, a deep well of eclectic
information, and an array of insights and experiences. I was (and
admittedly still am) very intentional about forming my “tough
mind”.
Yet, I've read 1st
Corinthians. I have a hard time ignoring that pesky chapter 13.
Without love, I am nothing. What Jonathan Edwards is so famous for is
his superior mind, coupled with an incredible love for people and a
broken heart before the throne of the Lord. He is accredited one of
the greatest American minds to have ever lived, yet his ability to
remain soft to the calling of the Lord and the ministry to which he
was to work diligently and faithfully was what made him great. My
greatest lesson (and it's still in progress) is one of softness. It's
been easy to allow my mind to harden my heart to both my Father in
heaven and to the people around me. But I'm called to something less
natural, something more honorable, something Christ-like. I am to
pursue my studies and soften my heart for the sake of the people
around, ultimately for the glory of God.
No comments:
Post a Comment