I'm Proud of My Humility

I was considering John of the Cross's list of virtues, and I was simply embarrassed at how easy it was to identify which I thought I needed the most of. I am in need of humility in absolutely everything. If there is reason to boast, I ascribe that reason to myself. I count all of my "good spiritual works" as pats on the back, as crowns for my head. The most dreadful attitude to have of my standing with God is the very thing I typify. I am God in my own mind. Honestly, I'm annoyed that I'm even admitting it. I need humility. Not soft, fun humility. I need that humility that punches you in the gut, strips you naked, and has you fall on your face in shame. I am proud of my "humility". I have cheapened Grace. I have cheapened the Cross.